Sunday, June 21, 2015

The Tower - When the Walls Come Tumbling Down

Happy Summer Solstice everyone!!!

For this blog hop, we were instructed to choose a card from the Major Arcana, for whatever personal reason that we have chosen it, and write about it.  It could be because we hate it, love it, wrote a poem about it, painted our own version of it, etc.  The personal reasons for choosing each card are going to be as diverse as our multi-talented hoppers. If you are following the blog in order, you should have come here by way of Johanna Hill and the Devil Card.  Let’s get started with the card that I chose, The Tower.

The Tower from the Pamela Coleman Smith 
Commemorative Deck

Ahhh, the dreaded Tower card.  It’s definitely one of those cards that can bring up instant anxiety when it turns up in a reading.  The picture itself is pretty intense, with lightening hitting the tower and people falling from the windows towards their impending doom.  It’s a pretty dark card at first look. We fear we are about to have the rug pulled out from under us, our foundation shaken to the core.  It’s obvious that something big is about to happen.  The thing about the destructive tower, is that there is always hope and possibilities in its wake.  We have the opportunity to rebuild the structure to make any improvements or changes that we would like.  Sometimes there has to be a shake up in our lives to make those changes, to make our lives more of what we want it to be or need it to be.  Many times, we know that changes need to be made but for whatever reason, we are reluctant.  Sometimes its fear based and sometimes we are just stuck and we don’t know how to proceed.  The Tower shows us that our hand is being forced; that its time to make those changes whether we feel we are ready or not.

I am no stranger to the fear of the Tower when it comes up, in my reading or in a clients reading.  Even after all of these years, I still get that little twinge and I think “oh crap”, but I know that this is just a forewarning and it’s best to be prepared so I (or the client) know where to go from here.  My “Tower moment” happened about 4 years ago, only it is more literal than most: my house was hit by lightening.  Talk about having your foundation destroyed.  Thankfully, no humans were home at the time so there were no injuries, however, we did lose a few feathered and furred family members. Losing your home in an event such as this is difficult to describe.  You lose your sense of security.  The place that is your retreat, where you feel safe, is no longer there to comfort you and in its place are pain and feelings of misplacement.  It was a surreal time in our lives.  It’s pretty normal to ask “why” at times like this, and its difficult to figure out what we are supposed to learn when we are in the midst of it.  There is always a lesson to be learned though, we just may not be aware of it right away. 

I had a few lessons that I learned and one of them was that I’m stronger than I thought I was.  I had to be, even though I felt like falling apart, and in some ways, I did.  Like the tower, I, personally, was destroyed and I needed to find a way to rebuild myself.  I needed the reminder that I was strong and that I could handle it, especially at a time in my life where I felt utterly defeated, even prior to the fire.  At first the fire felt as though it was one more negative thing to happen in our lives and I felt very much like a victim for a very long time. Then I changed my perception and looked for, not only the reasons that it happened, but how I could make the best out of the situation. I don’t even remember when it happened, in all honesty, but it did.  As sucky as it was at the time, I know that it laid the groundwork for what is happening now. 

At the time of the fire, our home was 11 years old.  We were talking about moving but we needed to do a lot of work to sell it, i.e. new carpet, painting, etc., you know: the typical things.  We needed to sell the house for many reasons but we didn’t even have the money to come up with improvements.  Enter the lightening.  Just like the Tower makes us do, we were able to rebuild our foundation by rebuilding our home.  The inside of our home has been remodeled and we are able to put the house on the market so we can move and rebuild the foundation of our relationship.  After years of barely seeing my over the road trucker husband, especially now that we are empty nesters, this is our opportunity for him to slow down and for us to focus on our relationship and really enjoy life rather than just doing what we need to do in order to pay the bills.  I’m not sure how long it would have taken us to be able to reach this point without the fire and quite honestly, it’s taken longer than what we have planned since then, but looking at everything that keeps coming up, I know that there is a reason for each and every one.  I see the path that is being laid before us.  I definitely do not wish this type of upheaval to anyone, but it happens and it’s up to us to figure out what we can learn from it and how we want it to define us. And while a “Tower moment” is going to bring upheaval, it’s not necessarily going to be as literal as lighting striking your home.

To help get some insight into your “Tower moment”, I have created the following spread:

The Tower Spread

  1. What is being destroyed that needs rebuilding?
  2. What can I do to make the best of this situation?
  3. What shouldn’t I do?
  4. What do I need to release?
  5. What will I gain?
  6. What lesson can I learn?

Life upheavals are definitely not easy, but I hope that this spread will give you some insight to how best to handle what you are going through and, most of all, what you can learn from it. 

It can be hard to see the meaning of it all while the walls of your structure are crumbling all around, but if you take the time to ground and center yourself and think about the situation after honoring your feelings around it, you can get a better handle on what is happening and be able to better prepare yourself.  There is always hope and opportunity after the Tower.  Always.

If you are following the blog entries in order, next in line is Vivianne Kacal with The Star.

Happy hopping!!

Bright Blessings.

Tarot deck used is the Pamela Coleman Smith Commemorative Deck

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Buried Treasure

We’ve all been there, tarot lovers, that is.  A new deck comes out and we just have to have it so we click that buy button. Shortly thereafter, another one comes out and we buy that one too.  There appears to be a cycle of new decks being released all at once and then there is nothing for a long time. During those down times, we discover decks that were previously released, and darn it!  We have it to have those too!  I, personally, wouldn’t know about that. Uuuuhhhhh.  Yes I would. HA  There are so many beautiful decks (tarot and oracle) that once we get started, it can be hard to stop and before we know it, we’ve spent all of our self imposed deck allowance (or more) on new (or new to us) decks. Can you say “buying spree”?   

There comes a point when you know you absolutely, positively have to stop or you will be reading your cards in the dark because you didn’t have enough to pay the electric bill.  Now, I haven’t actually experienced that but it has definitely been tempting at times. LOL  If you are anything like me, and I know I am (yes, I did that on purpose), you usually don’t have money to spend on decks and you just have to wait until you have the extra cash.  But what if you are craving new deck?  You know what I’m talking about.  The need to experience the excitement of getting a delivery, opening it with the wonder and excitement of “what will I think of this deck?”, “how will we work together?”, or “I wonder what the so and so card will look like”.  What if…you didn’t have the money to purchase a new deck and you really want to fulfill that need of a new one? 

I have 2 answers for you.  The first one is this…trading for one.  I’m sure there is a deck or two that you really don’t connect with that someone else would absolutely love to have.  There are Facebook groups that are specifically for trading decks and it can really be a fun and inexpensive way of getting a new to you deck with spending only the price of postage.  You do have to be careful here because you have to be sure that you can trust the people that you will be dealing with.  I recommend being in a group for awhile and watch the participants.  You will be able to tell who you can trust and who you cant and while I’ve only traded once, there are some really fabulous people in the tarot community and you more than likely wont have a problem, but there is always that chance that it wont go well.  I do have to say, I have not heard of any problems where I hang out.  You will also need to decide if you want to partner up with people who live in another country than you do because postage can be quite high.  Sometimes shipping from one country to another can be just as high as a $25 dollar deck.  This is not a problem if you’ve been looking for your Holy Grail for a long time, however, that is not generally the case.  Trading is how I got my Tarot of Trees deck by Dana Driscoll that I had been eyeing for a few years but never pushed that buy button.  No regrets.

The Tarot of Trees by Dana Driscoll

 If you don’t really care about the delivery part of the process (Not sure who this applies to though. Who doesn’t like receiving deliveries??? It’s like Christmas!), then you really don’t have to look any further than your own collection.  Raid your own collection!  There’s buried treasure there!  Remember when I was talking about buying sprees?  Well, when you have purchased 4 or 5 decks in a short amount of time, when they arrive, inevitably 1 or 2 of the new decks gets pushed aside, just for now,  so you can check out a couple of the other new ones and before you know it, you have forgotten about them.  It’s kind of like choosing kids.  Ok, not really, but sorta.  Tarot peeps understand.  Anyway, there they sit, on your tarot shelf, collecting dust.  It’s not just the newbies that get that treatment.  It happens with decks that you get but you don’t have an immediate connection with so on the shelf it goes.  You know the one.  The one that you drooled over for, in some instances, months, and you finally got it.  You open it up and you love the art.  I mean LOVE it but then you start reading with it and….nadda. zilch. zip.  It’s like the first kiss on a fabulous date gone wrong.  You are really attracted to them and you are having a great time.  You get to the end of the night and you kiss and there’s nothing.  No chemistry. Great big dud (insert fizzle noise here). It’s pretty similar.  Anyway, no connection, so on the shelf it goes to be forgotten about.  There have been decks that I have completely forgotten that I even had! No joke!  Recently, because funds were low and I had that craving, I dusted off my shelf and dug out a couple of my decks that I had completely forgotten about, the Transparent Tarot and Oracle of Proverbs.  

Transparent Tarot by Emily Carding

 The Transparent Tarot was a gift from my kids for Mothers Day when it first came out.  It fell into the category of “no connection” so I put it away. I pulled it out after being reminded about it on Facebook (Total enablers. Not complaining, I’ve found some freaking awesome decks this way). Holy cow!  I wish that I had pulled it out sooner!  Its freaking awesome!  I’ve been working with it for several weeks now and it’s my main deck for reading for myself right now.  I get some amazing depth by layering it 3 cards at a time.  WOWZA is all I can say.  Transparent Tarot by Emily Carding.  Check it out. 

Oracle of Proverbs by Delphine Sutherland

The Oracle of Proverbs by Delphine Sutherland falls into the category of “received a lot of decks at the same time so it got pushed aside”.  Obviously, this is a deck of proverbs, some I know and others that I’ve never heard of before.  There’s a reason those proverbs have been around forever. I’m telling ya. There is sage advice in them.  I’m more of a tarot gal, more than oracles but there are some that I just love.  This one is at the top of the list now.  Again, WOWZA!  I have been using it as an additional info card in my tarot readings and it provides so much more depth.  I use it as a “what else does the client need to know about this situation” and it has either shed just a bit more light on the subject or it has been a source of comfort for the client.  Right now, they are out of print, but if she gets enough people interested in the deck, she may put an order in.

I went on a lot longer than I had planned to but it has been so much fun revisiting old decks that I had to share. 

So there you go….a couple of different ways of getting that new deck feeling when you are on a tight tarot budget.  Don’t be afraid to raid your own stash.  Give an old deck a try that that you didn’t connect with at first or trade with a trusted new friend on Facebook. Please remember that I’m not recommending that you never buy another deck (I’m not crazy), but digging in your own tarot stash can be just as exciting as hitting that buy button.

Tarot on!

If you are interested in any of these decks, the links are below

Tarot of Trees
Transparent Tarot -this is the link to Amazon but you may be able to find it locally
Oracle of Proverbs